step one, you say, "we need to talk" he walks, you say, "sit down, it's just a talk" he smiles politely back at you, you stare politely right on through, some sort of window to your right, as he goes left and you stay right, between the lines of fear and blame, you begin to wonder why you came, where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life, let him know that you know best, 'cause after all, you do know best, you try to slip past his defense, without granting innocence, lay down a list of what is wrong, the things you've told him all along, pray to God he hears you, and pray to God he hears you, and where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life, as he begins to raise his voice, you lower yours and grant him one last choice, drive until you lose the road, or break with the ones you've followed, he will do one of two things, he will admit to everything, or he'll say he's just not the same, and you'll begin to wonder why you came, where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life, where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life, how to save a life, how to save a life, where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life, where did I go wrong? I lost a friend (where did I go wrong?), somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night (and I would have stayed up), had I known how to save a life, how to save a life,

Treble clef 2 property of calliope
dear diary, it's september 3rd, and i'm finally trying this out

so, i'm finally trying this out, as you have just read. well, duh; anywho, i'm doing this at 2:27, world history, sophomore year. well, i'm writing this at 2:27-2:28, but whatever. so far i'm just treating this like my secret diary google docs thing, you know. "secret diary, keep out," that's what I'm referring to, that google doc, i mostly just write to myself though, so YOU don't know, but I do. anywho, i'll end this tutorial paragraph coding thing here. whatever. yeah.

GODDAMNIT. i have tried this stupid link tutorial part two other times already. the first time, short and sweet. UNTIL I CLICKED ON THE LINK IN THE SITE PREVIEW AND IT JUST STARTED DELETING EVERYTHING. then, unsuspectingly, i tried a second time. just for the bell to ring and for me having to close my chromebook and for this to all get DELETED. AGAIN!! whatever yada yada yada blah blah blah, i'm trying this stupid link thing again, NOT clicking it, and making sure i get to the next part of the tutorial before closing my chromebook. let's try this AGAIN. (btw the other times i tried this i was in digital media class, now i'm in algebra II pre-ap)

i have to do it in a paragraph.and soooo...> the link, finally. let's hope this works...

now for images, let's do this brah tub. there it is.

okay i don't know if it actually worked, but i see the little wittle photo icon, sooooooooo.... maybe it worked? will update when i figure it out.

okay, it's the next day, september 4th, i'm in 2nd period now, spanish II. last period i was making slime, now i'm doing random spanish shit, and now i'm trying the image thing again, cauzeeeee... i'm not sure it worked- let's try this again... there we go. anywho imma try this new tutorial thing now.

the tutorial thing, a list of random stuff i like

i have figured it out, the "ol," within the like,<>, is for a NUMBERED list, an "ul," is for bullet points. i'll just go for the bullet points for right now.- okay to add a link and images to my lists, i gotta do this >>

yep, there we go. there it is. yeah.

okay, so now i'm finally done with the tutorial, and i checked it out, like what ya'll would see when you click on my page thingy. and it sucks. wow, this is some horseshit. but whatever, i'll prevail.

okay, now i'm checking out the themes, and i'm trying to choose between-

  1. ambiance
  2. green on black
  3. mono industrial
  4. or twilight
they're all cool, but i'm not sure. maybe green on black for that classic cool coding look and feel.

okay i chose green on black. it's just way too cool to pass up.

alright. so. i don't really know what to do now. i think i should just make this my new "secret diary, keep out," except, i already have a couple of entries. of course, i do. but, i don't know whether i should just copy and paste them all onto here, or just i don't know... add a link to them? if anyone cares, i do, but i don't know if me ranting is very entertaining. my digital diary was basically just me saying i hate school, which i don't really, but still, would rather be home.

alright, now i'm in english II and since everyone is getting covid again (oml bruh), my teachers out, so there's a random sub, also for my digital media class too i think, the teacher there said she had to take her kids to some doctor appointments or something i don't know, and i don't really care, but yeah. anywho, i have a runny nose, and had to fight the urge to sneeze a fart outta me. lol jk, but i have been trying not to sneeze. on other news, i think i will add my original digital diary onto here, and just make this my main digital diary for now on, it's more fun. it's better than the bright ass google doc screen too.

so, now starting my new main digital diary, i should probably start off with my iconic (to me) introductory.

dear diary, it's september 4th, and i'll just start this off with talking about my day so far

okay, so, i'll add my previous (insane) entries later, when i figure out how i want to add them, and start with first period, or actually- when i woke up. and maybe a bit of yesterday, or any other day.

okay so, yesterday was a hoot (wow, so, i guess my indesisive ass is starting with yesterday), after school, of course, i got picked up by my dad, and there was some stuff in the front seat- which included some cool looking car thingy. well, it had wheels so i assumed it was a car thing, and i was right; i was just playing with it a bit in the car, and since we live close by my school, it was a short car ride, but towards the end of it, my dad started telling me about the origins of the car looking thingy. basically what it was was a thing he made in a woodworking class in 7th grade, he said that when they were done with making it, they had to race them (the other students, i mean). long story short, (well actually short story short) he got second place, but it was some horseshit because the person who won was a teacher's pet and they had this pump for like a gas tank kinda thing, the teacher had to set it on a certain level so they all went on the same pressure, i guess?- and the teacher kinda screwed him over and put his at 1.2 or some shit i don't even know, so bascially he should've won. lol also he mentioned when his mom(my grandma) found it, she was like wtf is this bro. and- sorry i had to stop typing rq and i know anyone reading this would have no way of knowing, but i just had to leave to fourth period-, but anywho, back to what i was saying- when she found it she was like what's this and my dad told her the story and she was like bro i would never let you step foot into that kinda class, but he said he just forged her signature lmao, anywho i know that's not crazy entertaining or anything, but i don't know, it's kinda cool kinda weird learning about those kinda things about your parents, like when they were young.

anywho, after that, when we got home, he left to go to the bank apparently, and the store, and my mom was getting ready for work, she leaves for work at like 6-7pm, and so shes getting ready, and did i mention my dad like HAS to call and text her like everytime hes driving or going places? like thats nice, but at the same time goddamn sometimes she needs a break bruh. alright so, she's like expecting him to call her and text her and stuff, but for like 30 minutes he's not responding to calls, texts, facetimes, nada, and yeah now we're like really getting really worried, because like- though he doesn't trust like location tracking shit i guess, my mom can see where he's at, or at least where he makes transactions, you know?- and last she sees him use their card, it's at a gas station, but yeah no calls no texts, nothing. my mom has always had this fear,too, of like, something happening. same here honestly, but also like she's a nurse so- she gets car accidents and sometimes they don't make it. so me and her are just thinking the worst, and yah bro he finally calls back- he was playing basketball. forget to send a text about it. swears he told us; pinche- papa forgetting and scaring us like that bruh🤦. and uhhhh- yeah there's that. was scary. and sad. my mom got really upset and scared.

new topic now though, i fell asleep yesterday, after my mom left for work of course, but i'm not exactly sure when i fell asleep, all i know is that i woke at 5 something. crazy for me to actually sleep for more than two hours actually,.... so, woohoo?! i don't know honestly. at this point i'm actually just spewing some random shit at ya'll now. anywho, first period we just made slime, and i took the one i made and the one a classmate made, to salvage at home and bring back tomorrow, voluntarily actually, but it's slime so.. yeah. second period, i was just doing this, i have hella work missing, i'm so not passing spanish this year. anywho, you're all caught up. i'll go figure out how to add my previous diary now.

okay honestly, now i'm just looking into other people's pages n stuff and just trying out some codes n stuff teehee. so like, just be prepared to see some random shit now. well, untill i get the hang of this, which actually probably won't be for a while. lol.

i'm gay lol jk, but i am VERY bi. background-color: #0020bd;

i'll add that later

okay so clearly i was experimenting with adding images and blinkies, andd soo i found some and added hellllla. my plan is to move them around n stuff and like explain why i chose them, individually or together if theyre like related (the gay ones ofc), and uh so yeah, there were hella in each website, and uh yeah so i just chose the ones i thought were cool and that fit my personality. of course there were many i thought were aesthetically pleasing, but i decided against just choosing the ones i thought looked cool (except the very first one- the anime girl with blue hair, idk where she's from), and erm i wanted ones i can talk about, because well there's not much else to talk about, you know? anywho, it's the end of the day, and i've just been looking at the websites with the images and blinkies the entire time, and i'll probably just continue searching for some more cool looking things i could add to this thing. so yeah. anywho credit to the person whose page i found all the websites for the uh uhh yeah stuff for, including the rainbow text thingy from. does that count as credit for all the people who made the thingies? i'm just going to assume so uh- yeah there it is, it's a super cool page. teehee anywho.. maybe actually just signing off for now.. i'm pretty tired. i'll organize everything later- and even if i don't- that's so like me, can't clean up for sheeeet.... okay actually yeah i just want to change and relax and eat and drink water cuz omg i forgot to drink water all day, iwanna jst drink a gallon of water rn actually i'm thirsty AF. ttyl.

my sister picked the first one

found some of these on ,and i found THAT page at

another image *w*

hey okay so it's september 5th, and the entire school day i was just looking for templates, tutorials, n whatnot, and still am. i still haven't figured out how to make a layout with a copy n paste tutorial, i got a cursor, but that's it. sheesh, this is kinda hard.